This weekend my husband and I had a quite the blow up, which
resulted in him walking out and me saying those dreaded words: “Why don’t we
just break up?!”
Looking back, I now understand the reasons it went that far,
with me being pre-menstrual and him having a cold and being exhausted. A tiny
bicker, which would normally have been laughed off by one of us, snowballed
into shouting, slamming doors and him walking out. We were both living the argument
in highly emotive states, governed by our hormones and bodily conditions. It’s
not unusual for Matt and I to buck heads; we are both Leos with big personalities
who like to be right and to win! However, we normally release this energy healthy
ways, such as political debates and card games (with my being the long-term
reigning champion of Shithead by the way!), walking out and declaring a break
up are not normal occurrences and it unnerved us both.
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| Us in our fave spot |
Here’s the thing though, reflecting on the weekend has made
me feel more secure and more determined than ever that we are destined to last
a lifetime. After Matt walked out, I rang him. Then he rang me. Then I rang
him. Then he rang me and left a voicemail. Then he came home again. 20 minutes
and four calls later, Matt was back home. Obviously, we didn’t just slip back
into normal life right away, but for the sake of our toddler we spent the rest
of the day as a family and just got on with it. Reading this situation fills me
with such joy and is almost laughable. Once our emotional states were calming
and we had taken a breather from each other, we realised that this wasn’t what
either of us wanted at all. The amount of phone calls itself tell us that we
never really wanted to be apart or stop communicating. We let our emotions
override our connection in the moment, but we were both determined to reconnect
and be back to normal.
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| Honeymoon <3 |
This pure determination that Matt and I both have to make our
relationship work is the reason that it will work, and it will work forever. We
both want our marriage to succeed, we want to love each other fully, we want to
show each other how much we care, we want to make each other happy, we want to
forgive instantly, we want to support each other, we want to have fun, we both
want this more than anything. There is nothing but unconditional love and determination
in our hearts, and that fiery Leo drive that can escalate arguments can also be
translated as unbreakable passion. We are connected by our love, passion and
drive for our marriage and our family. And now our Wildventure is taking this
to another level.
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s
going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want
to that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me .
. . everyday.” The Notebook, Nicholas Sparks.
Yes, there may be tense moments, but these fleeting moments
have nothing on our true and raw connection.
With my husband’s
birthday coming up on Saturday, I’d like to end this post by saying:
“Happy birthday to my
daring gorgeous husband, let’s go Yurt it up! Woop Woop!”
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